Holding On To Smoke

C#m A9 I'm tired of feeling comatose C#m A9 I've lost the me that I loved most C#m A9 I'm barely holding onto smoke C#m I'm barely holding on to smoke! ( C#m A9 E B5(9) ) ( C#m A9 E B5(9) ) E C#m I'm not addicted but I'm not clean A9 B5(9) Why do I do this to myself on repeat E C#m So disconnected from my own reality A9 B5(9) Am I man or machine C#m A9 If I give, will you take? E B5(9) As I lie for the taste C#m A9 I just fuck it up E B5(9) A9 As you lap it up E (Go!) C#m Through flesh and bone A9 I walk alone (Go!) If I run will I fade away B5(9) 'Cause I don't wanna leave it behind [Refrão] C#m A9 In all my pride, all my shame E B5(9) I find strength enough to show you C#m A9 I may bend but I won't break E 'Cause I define who I B5(9) Define who I become E C#m I miss the me that I have not met A9 B5(9) Choking in silence on the words left unsaid E C#m I feel a sickness for a home I've never been A9 B5(9) And I exist in black and white but now I'm seeing red C#m I built a shelter in complacency F#m B5(9) Locked myself in and set fire, And threw away the key C#m Too scared to live but I'm afraid to die A9 So am I living or am I just alive? [Refrão] C#m A9 In all my pride, all my shame E B5(9) I find strength enough to show you C#m A9 I may bend but I won't break E B5(9) I define who I who I become C#m A9 'Cause I'm tired of feeling comatose E F#m I've lost the me that I loved most C#m A9 I'm barely holding on to smoke E B5(9) But I'm holding on, I'm holding on C#m Broken! I'm holding on E Driven! To right the wrong C#m A9 E Silent! Connected yet I feel so separated C#m Fallen! Through flesh and bone E Frozen! I stand alone C#m A9 E Deafened! In silence the voice remains C#m A9 Behind my eyes, beneath my rage E F#m I was struggling to get through C#m A9 Out of time and out of faith E B5(9) I define who I become! C#m A9 In all my pride, all my shame E B5(9) I find strength enough to show you C#m A9 I may bend but I won't break E I define who I B5(9) Define who I become C#m A9 'Cause I'm tired of feeling comatose E F#m I've lost the me that I loved most C#m A9 I'm barely holding on to smoke E B5(9) But I'm holding on, I'm holding on C#m A9 I'm tired of being human, tired of being numb E B5(9) I'm waiting for the holy ghost to come C#m A9 So save me from the webs that I have spun F#m B5(9) I'm holding on, holding on F#m I'm holding on B5(9) A5 Holding on to smoke!