Samantha Sandler

[Verso 1] Gm You said that you hate tension but you fed it like a flame, D# and I used to test the waters hoping you would stay okay Cm Youd say to stand on business, like fire was a game, D youd teach me how to hold my ground, but not against your name [Pré-Refrão] Gm And every time I met you there, the rules would rearrange, D# My voice was only heard if you were not the one to blame, Cm I got too good at reading all the pauses in your speech, D Til nothing felt like what it was, just something underneath [Refrão] D# Cm You only love the truth when its not about you, Gm when youre clean, when its distant, when it fits Dm your point of view D# Theres no point explaining if it doesnt end your Cm way, Gm Dm every version of your story villainizes what I say D# But the quiet got so loud it filled the corners of Cm the room, Gm like every word unspoken was a weight I had to Dm move D# And I kept bending backwards just to keep the Cm peace with you, Gm but I was disappearing in the things you couldnt D do [Verso 2] Gm We used to talk for hours about the way that people are, D# like wed studied every feeling, like wed mapped out every scar Cm And I thought that kind of insight meant youd recognize the line, D but theres a difference between saying it and how you feel in real time Gm You were always quick to notice every fault in someone else, D# but every mirror that you held up never really faced yourself Cm You said I shouldve told you if it ever got too much, D but you knew exactly what your silence did to us [Pré-Refrão] D# Cm I was always being honest, I was always being me Gm I just held back certain pieces, kept it Dm somewhere in between [Refrão] D# Cm You only love a story when its about you, Gm when it flatters, when you win, when everybody Dm loves you D# You only like my feelings when theyre echoing Cm your own, Gm but you disagree the second that I stand in them Dm alone D# And I held onto the good like it was something I Cm could save, Gm but the weight of your avoidance just kept Dm pushing me away D# You dont get to play surprised like you didnt set Cm the scene, Gm You dont get to call me cruel for finally being D mean Outro D# And the hardest part to carry isnt anger, its the Cm truth, Gm there were days I wouldnt trade, and I still miss Dm the times with you D# Cm I wish it didnt end like this, I wish I felt more kind, Gm like I didnt have to lose myself to finally draw Dm the line D# I wouldve stayed beside you through the worst Cm youd ever see, Gm I wouldve held your world together like you Dm subtly expected of me D# But theres only so much swallowing I could do to Cm keep the peace, Gm And I finally chose the version of myself you D couldnt keep